I have had a bit of a writing break-through lately. It has only recently occurred to me that I CAN do this. I can write that book and finish it.
I have spent over a year being overwhelmed and just constantly hearing the words in my head, "I can't do this!"
I never would have called that fear, but today at a prayer group I shared this and two different people interpreted it as fear. I kinda thought that they had misunderstood me, but as I sat and listened I realized that they are right. It doesn't feel like I think fear usually feels, but that is exactly what it is.
We prayed about it and I am trusting that God is going to keep this new feeling of confidence alive. I can do this. Why? Because those whom He calls, He also equips.
I see myself as a young child teetering on a bike -- without training wheels! And it is very difficult and the words fly out, "I CAN'T!" But there is God, not pointing His finger and demanding that I must, but smiling and cheering and saying "Oh yes you can!"