I have had a bit of a writing break-through lately. It has only recently occurred to me that I CAN do this. I can write that book and finish it.
I have spent over a year being overwhelmed and just constantly hearing the words in my head, "I can't do this!"
I never would have called that fear, but today at a prayer group I shared this and two different people interpreted it as fear. I kinda thought that they had misunderstood me, but as I sat and listened I realized that they are right. It doesn't feel like I think fear usually feels, but that is exactly what it is.
We prayed about it and I am trusting that God is going to keep this new feeling of confidence alive. I can do this. Why? Because those whom He calls, He also equips.
I see myself as a young child teetering on a bike -- without training wheels! And it is very difficult and the words fly out, "I CAN'T!" But there is God, not pointing His finger and demanding that I must, but smiling and cheering and saying "Oh yes you can!"
Go Kay! You can do this! We'll be right here on the sidelines, cheering you on.
ReplyDeleteYou can do this!!
ReplyDeleteI never thought about it being fear, more likely lack of confidence. Glad you got a handle on it and will look forward to hearing how you progress.
ReplyDeleteMom, I don't see a big difference between lack of confidence and fear because I think a lack of confidence is rooted in a fear of failure.
ReplyDeleteKay - preach it, girl. I thought this week - God doesn't just THINK I can do this, He KNOWS I can.
Kay, confidence is an interesting thing, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteEveryone else always knows you can do it, it's just yourself you have to convince.
You go girl!
We only have two emotions, love and fear. Just think about it.
ReplyDeleteI am glad you are ready to write again, looking forward to a good read.
Just take it one paragraph or page at a time. Don't concentrate on the big picture. You are right...God is the enabler.
ReplyDeleteI am ready to read this book already! I know you can do this...I have known all along. the only thing you can't do is juggle knives. See...
ReplyDeleteYou can!
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